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     Most will say that the last few days of the year should be spent in reflection. Others even go as far as strategizing how the first week of the new year will be spent. Believing that how you bring in the year is how the rest of the year will go. Admittedly, I’ve tried all these tactics in my past. I took a vow of silence the last 48 hours of 2011, in the hopes of receiving divine direction. It was the most peaceful two days I encountered. However, the year that followed was the most treacherous.

     2012 has a been a year of self discovery for me. Partly from forced life lessons, others I searched for. What I’ve come to learn is that peaceful moments will always reveal themselves when a person is in search of it. However, it’s the maintenance of peacefulness that we seem to struggle with the most. The wrestling of our spirits is what keeps many of us up at night or knelt in prayer. Our spirits act as if it’s imprisoned within us.

     At this same time last year, during my fast from speaking, I allowed my spirit to rest. As a result, I received the answers from God that I was looking for. Prayer, fasting and reading spiritual literature allowed me to subdue logical thinking that was blocking any other voice besides my own. Although, I hear God’s voice more frequently now, my own inner voice is still the loudest and has the most impact.

God’s voice told me go,
my own voice told me to stay.
Stay comfortable.

God’s voice told you to go,
your own voice told you to stay.
Stay safe.

     We have become a nation of comfortably safe insomniacs. We’ve slept walked into a time when Mayan culture predicted wouldn’t exist. We’ve witnessed the mass murdering of babies in a fashion we never would’ve dreamed of. The desire to remain asleep should be no more.

     The media laughed and corporations capitalized off the Mayan philosophy of our world coming to an end. No attention was paid to the additional aspects of their theory that this age in time could not be predicted as the “dead is to be born again”. Today, more than ever life is what you make of it. How can we live life to its fullest half awake?

     As many of the world’s inhabitants were preparing for the world to end, others mocked the predicted concept. There are few who prepared for their calling to teach to be revealed. Faith is a learned and re-learned belief. It’s the enlightened ones who allowed the imprisonment of their spirit, God’s voice, to start a new beginning by experiencing freedom. A purposed filled life isn’t birthed until your voice repeats that of God’s and your feet begin to walk down your newly claimed cleared path. According to the book of James, “for the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without works is dead also.”

     As 2013 approaches, reflect on all your previous reflections you have yet to act upon. I guarantee nights will become more restful and smiles will become a more frequently seen fixture on your face once you accept your membership as apart of the Holy Trinity. Your spirit should not be competing with the views of the world or your ego. In 2013, stop thinking so much….and just DO. Just GO! Just BE PURPOSELY HAPPY!

Greetings family, friends and fans.  2011 is coming to an end, yet this year has marked many new beginnings for me.  This year I developed a relationship and appreciation for myself which resulted in a love affair with my soul and an excitement for my life’s journey.  The epiphanies of 2011 helped me acquire gratitude  for life and the experiences it brings me.  Increased thankfulness towards God’s purpose for me has raised my faith to previously unknown heights and some areas of fear has subsided.  As a result, I was able to accomplish things I never imagined and set even higher bars of success for 2012.

In March of 2011, I released my first mix tape Spoken Word CD, Love Perceptions.  As a part of the creative process, I fulfilled a fantasy of having a nude photo shoot for the cover.  My decision came under the scrutiny of mixed reviews.   I survived emotional turmoil as my thoughts echoed over top twenty R&B tracks caused a rift in my family and conversely brought me so many fans and friends.  I stayed true to my core being for the entire project and invested in myself, ignoring the financial risks and potential embarrassment. I nearly quadrupled my investment and sold over 200 cd’s locally.  I’ve gained more knowledge on how to make my following projects a bigger success.  I was hoping to have my second CD released before the end of the year, but I’m being forced to learn patience.  In 2012, producers will create the hottest tracks and I will upgrade my writing skills.  The combination will gain worldwide recognition.

I watched my son complete several milestones in 2011.  He finished his first year of school top of his class with accolades from every teacher he came in contact.with.  Tyler Jones is becoming a synonym for creative as he displays a high level of intellect infused with the craziest sense of humor.  He became one of the youngest students of Eagle Tae Kwon Do Academy to receive his Black Belt.  I see an unlimited future for this young man and made a point to invest in his creative development.  He completed a 12 week training course with Charlotte’s Children Theater and began taking guitar lessons.  Although my income has been limited this year, God saw fit to make all of this possible for him.  That’s an affirmation that his artistic development at a young age is predestined.

I opened my heart and became able to receive love.  I’ve dated great men this year, with the exception of one (there’s always that one).  This year is ending with me in an exclusive relationship with exciting potential.  Love comes in all forms and I’ve gained some great friends this year as well.  Now I truly believe you are what you attract-and I like what I’ve been attracting.   However, I am still a work in progress.  By continuing to develop God’s image within me, I will attract who God has for me.  God won’t bless mess and I did a lot of internal cleaning in 2011.  The cleaning and emotional development will continue, as well as increased communication and listening skills.  I will act as if I am and prepare myself for being a wife.  I will also surround myself with friends who inspire me and can contribute knowledge or new experiences in my life.

I self published my first chapbook, A Gemini’s Syllogism, two weeks ago.  Being an author has always been a dream of mine and I’m quite proud of this accomplishment.  This year I will release additional themed chapbooks to offer audiences a variety of my work.  Additionally, I’d like to build my freelancing career to help supplement my income in 2012.  In order for these doors to open, I have to continue developing my writing skills and be willing to step outside of the box. 

2011 will be marked in my history as the year that joy entered my life.  2012 my levels of joy will be increased boiling over to my family, friends and co-workers.  The health of me and my son will be at the top of my priority list.  2012 is all about being a happier, healthier, sexier, more faithful and super confident me.  I’m appreciative for everyone who has helped me get to this point and will continue this ride with me.  I look forward to meeting those who will impact my life positively. 

212 in 2012.

 

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