“Mustering up genuine compassion for those who have wronged us, instead of allowing anger toward them to eat away at us,” is the nature of forgiveness. I thank God that he placed the ability to forgive others in my heart. I have been wronged in so many ways by teachers, co-workers, family, so-called friends and ex lovers. I’ve even had to extend forgiveness to the man who currently holds my heart. However, I’m not a bitter person, an angry black woman and a people hater. I still amplify agape love. I have really developed the talent to understand people for where they are in their own walk with God and I accept the fact that “hurt people, hurt people”.
I am a true believer in Karma. When I became attuned as a Reiki Healer, I cleared my Karmic Debt and have become very mindful of how I treat people and what energy I put out in the world. I am far from perfect and have added more things to my Karmic slate since then, but God knows I’m nowhere close to where I once was. I say all that to say, treating people badly that has treated me badly does nothing for my soul. Call me a punk, a pushover, gullible if you dare. I just chose not to “hurt” a “hurt” person because they “hurt” me.
Sometimes it’s hard to forgive myself. I often question agape love versus the familiarity of misery. I am working on this daily because the people I attract are actually a mirror of myself. I’m confident that once I learn to treat myself better and truly take on a spirit of humility, that I’ll have less instances of being hurt by others.
Galatians 5:22-23 ”But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.”